hate me? then PISS OFF.

sori fer not updating my blog fer so long.life fer mi has been rather mundane of late.been coming home late and geeting scolded by my parents.all this have been my routine wen i got back home,got scolded by parents wen i enter de hse,talk back to dem den on ipod loud2 so can't hear wad dey talking abt..wen to toilet wash myself den head to my rm lock de doors n hang myself on de phone till late like 4 or 5 den de next dae wake up fer wrk n come home late again.

our "dating" time is our break wen wrking.i'm fine with it so is he.cuz bth of us are workerholic.recently i noe we have 3 same mole spot.and i was lyk holy shit!u gotta b kidding mi seh.its like my twin seh.last tym i tot syuk was my other twin.but i guess he fit de better picture.

yesterdae i was still at ph at 3+am.den mi n him was at de make table ahx...sia lah we read spec chart oso can crack joke...stupid seh den we luff non stp until syuk n ila finish counting money fer rider,TA counter n dine in.den syuk ask him to arrange de cold room help him out wid it...cow,in de cold rom we luff non stp serious seh ytd was like my stomach almost expload dun to too much luffing.

wen ever i'm at wrk i'm happi.wen i'm at home i feel sulky.i dunno y...but i guess mi n my family have yet to sit dwn n have dinner or talk to each other as a family.cuz its been ages sice we last did tt.n all like minding their own bussiness n mi wake up got ready fer wrk went off to wrk n go home wen everyone is aslp.

i can't deny tht i dun miss them but ya guys noe mi,i'm not the shit tt goes ard saying tt i miss dem and all tt shit esp to my family...i hav my ego n pride to save man

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hmm...din do much on my bdae actualli.i woke up late as i slept late de nite before.
thanks to my aunt and cuz for coming down to my hse fer a suprise party...but so sori tt i hav to go to work...appreciate wad u guys did...hope u had fun messing my room...haha...oki.so i cut de cake n took pic den my sis pack some cake n told mi to eat it wen i'm at wrk...so wen i reached ph bb,put de cake in de fridge n work my arse off cus its damn bz...nvr even came to de bar to eat de cake or wateva...den towards de ending i fell while carring some plates wen i was pre bussing den kena scolding frm de FIC.den i was like argh.den i heck ahz...i guess she was piss den she shouted at dine in area wen der is still customer.wateva lahz i dun wan to care.den of of de senior talk to her...wadeva lahz hor...i dun wan to care den a while ltr she sae sori...den i was like umm ok..like come on if i dun forgive her she n i will b akward wen we wrk on de same shift so i was umm ya ok..like tt onli lor...den DANI came dwn ph!!!YAY!!den i finished my closing on top,i went to help out in de kitchen with danni...heheh...finish all de closing le den we head up to dine in area where at last i ate my cake...share it wid danni,yunus,khairul.apish came late so no ckae fer him..haha...de hilight of de dae ish,wen mi,yunus n danni went fer supper at mac n tell stupid shits to each other....haha...love dem to bits n pieces.dey jus noe how to perk my dae up wen its like goin down hill.
dani came dwn to ph cuz he feel sumting nt rite den he sae he feel tt sumone nid to jus let out sumting..n his rite...i let out wad happen to mi to him cuz he come jus nice de tyming...den i told him lahz...den he jus like give advises n tell lame things tt make mi luff...thanks danni!!! :)))

thanks to thos hu wish mi oso...!

On 24 feb 2007 at CSC bukit batok hilltop my cuz organised a bbq party fer all de feb kids in de family.It will be at 2pm. Ppl hu are invited

-JLNMN
-amanda
-sharon
-4e5
-merah
-ein
hannah
-syuk
-nas
-fauziah
-safiah
-yunus
-danni

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Okie I had a FUN time yesterdae!It was 14 Feb and we went out together!!!was superb tho der are like tym wen we were piss.But having him beside mi jus make it so fine.we want to go to ecp jus to c de sun set...

meet him and dannie at BBC pizza hut after working at ngee ann which ended at 4+.reached pizza hut at 5+ wait till dey finish eating den we headed to de mrt.alighted at bedok took 196 to go to east coast park.actualli we din noe wad bus to take but 1 of our colluge told us tt 196 reach ECP.so we took de bus but we din reached ECP at all!den mi,dannie n yunus were piss sia...de bus reached until raffels place.we walk towards de mrt still dunno where to go...in the end we head down to ViVo and lay der till viVo closed.wen we were laying dwn,we saw our stars.as in its not our star la but we claim it's ours cuz everydae we go home we will b sure to c 3 stars in a straight line n a satelite close to it w/o fail.we can onli c tt wen at ut.But amazingli we saw tt at viVo ytd.yay!we tOok a cab n alighted at ut mrt.went to 7 11 and bought some food n ate under de blk.walk dannie home den we head hOme.was sO Much fun at viVo...we climb almost anyting tt can be climb.den he dip our eets into de water n jus sit ard...

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okie its been long since i last updated...sori guys been bz lah...okie o'level result i got a fucked up result.cried once i got hold of de result slip...heart jus shattered into a thousand million pieces.All my hardwork din paid off.cried n cried.but no matter how much tears i shead nth will change my result.thanks to those hu tried to cheer mi up n tell mi its okie.to those hu hav done well congrats.

actualli wen i got my result slip i hold back my tears cuz i dun wan to cry infront of many ppl...but once i hug syaza its like i jus can't hold back anymore.seriousli...like wth.den after a while mich n lun come n cheer mi up den a while later nani came too...den when i wan to make a move ms wong hold mi back n talk to mi..den i was like wateva lahz...u noe cuz like farkin piss if i noe i will get this kinda result i would't even bother to study.

den walk to caltex mit Dani n yuNus rite aft their fridae prayers.reach der dani tried to cheer mi up told mi nt to b sad all tt shit...den dani n yunus did 1 stupid ting den make mi broke into laughter.dey are de onli 1 hu manage to realli put a smile on my face on tt dae.its like i realli smile willingli...nt like those smile just 4 de sake of smiling.dani n yunus are like my family alrd...every up n down i go through dey are der.nvr fail to put on a smile on my face even wen i'm slpin.It's like seriousli who will wait n slack outside ph frm 4pm all de way to closing which usuali end ard 11+ to 12am. at most if bf oso dey will go somewhere or go home slp den nearing 11 or 12 den dey come dwn...but dey actualli literalli waited at ph all de way.comeon seriousli would any of u do tt fer a fwen...i was shocked wen dey sae dey wan to wait fer mi end wrk.guilty oso got..haiz...My i realli3 treasure dem...
Love u Guys....But of course i Love yunus mOre..hahah

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okie ytd was our 1mTh!!!wheee...can't call it a aniversary cuz aniversary is fer yrs..so fast its been 1 mth wid him...love him loads.so fars ders never a dae i din meet him.n i din xpect to cry fer hiim..gosh...din noe tt i was tt emo man...till recently...cuz i've got to go to hospital n tt tym he got presentation n test n project to finish up n it will b our first tym nt seeing each other fer 4 dae.den i hug him gd bye we he sent mi home n tears start flowing.wen i got home i realised tt i've nvr reacted tt way b4 seh...like jus bcuz can't meet him fer 4 dae i cry...den he was worried.

den as always we got anyting onli sure go to dannie.dannie its like family...ya noe like we 3 ish 1 family.dannie got prob we are der,we got prob dannie ish der...den dannie took care of mi fer 1 dae when we wrk togeher...cuz both of us were worri abt each other...but usualli he is worriedabt mi,cuz i enjoy crossing de road anyhow...i guess all of u shld noe by now...haha...den while i was doin closing,he came dwn to ph!!yay!so mi n dannie n him n shareen went home together.As usual mi,him n dannie will alight at cck n walk to limbang talk2 or eat fer while den we walk all de way home.shareen usualli will go home first cuz i dunno y...

okie since its our 1 mth.i jus got to noe tht he like mi since p4..hahah...k heres de sori,its like fate ya noe...

primary skool mi,him n hafiz were in de same skool.he n hafiz were classmates n mine senior.onli tt i duNno dey exsist till i join phbb.wen p4 he saw mi n told hafiz tt i was cute den he got crush on mi...den like all de way frm he was p5 wen he like mi till p6.den wen p6 like last dae of skOol he like argh let go onli lahz,cuz he nvr had de courage to talk to mi den he sae nvm lahz not his tym all tt shit jus to please his feelings lahz...den he sae he will see mi on mrt all tt but seriousli wen i meet him at ph bb tt was de first time i saw him.den wen i sec 4 went to madr i happens to be in de same class as him... even den i din realised he was mine madr classmate.den he told mi his reaction was like alamak si dier nie lagik...cuz he like forget mi alrd den i came to his life.haha..den he still din hav de chance to talk to mi cuz i oways come late fer madr n wen break its onli wen solat isyak...so nvr had a chance to communicate...den wen i got to phbb,he ask mi if i madr at al khair den i sae ya...den i ask how he noe he sae his my classmate...den i sae how come u c mi i dun c u...den he sae ya lahz ppl come late every wk of course lah noe...hahah
den wrk3 like we noe each other fer 4 daes...n tt 4 daes were 4 mirical daes tt brought him to mi.finalli he got de girl he had a crush on since p4..haha...n now we are 1 mth...!
i love u!!!

this post will be esp for XXX hu wrote abt mi n mine fwens.tho u din sae hu tt person is,its so obvious tt she were saying abt us.

Firstly,we din force u to attend nor stay fer de party. If u feel that de party was pretty fucked up y did u act as if u were having fun n nt piss at all wen we came late.Aren't u being fake.
So hu's being fake rite now?u or us?if u dun like staying fer de party or dun like to b ard mi or my fwens or hu ever why did u care to show up.

Btw we hav a gd reason fer coming late.some may noe,but i'm sure u dun.Anyways abt de camera ting.firstli its mine,most of de pic are my sis cuz she often borrow it n her skOol hav more nicer place to take pics den our Skool.n i dun get it why shld i bring to skOol cam wen we wear skOol uniform its as if i will post up on friendster or wadeva.onli an idiot will bring cam fer no reason.so i bring mine cam on special occasion.n my sis go out more often den mi n go to placese such as esplanade all de tym where de secenery is nice tt y she bring cam to take pic...i'm mor of shopolic,so why should i bother to bring cam wen all i care is shoPping...aren't tt stupid.

Secondli,she usualli dun upload her photo right aft she uses de cam,so she told mi nt to delete first.mi on the other hand,will upload asap.so aft i upload i will delete de pic.

thirli de mp3,i din steal.it was at mich house.if ya shld noe.mi n mich was being accused.if u dunno de stori shut ur trap hole.

this is my part of de stori if u dun wan to believe its up to u.its like de saying i can pull de horse to de water but i can't force it to drink if dey dun wan to. So in this case,i can tell u so much at de end of de dae its up to u to believe.

Anyways mi being a bitch or wadeva,tt yr point of view.So far my fwens dun think so n accept mi fer hu i am.Sae wad ya wanna abt mi,but at least

I DUN PRETEND TO TALK TO MY BOIFWEN BUT IN DE ACTUAL FACT TALK TO A RUBBER BAND!!!GOSH!COM'ON ITS EITHER U HAV A BF OR U DUN.N SO WAD IF U DUN.U DUN HAV TO GO TO DE EXTEND BY PRETENDING YR RUBBER BAND IS UR BF.
WAD MORE U HAVE UR EARPIECE ON,PUT A RUBBER BAND INSIDE UR POCKET N PRETEND TO TALK TO UR BF FRM YISS BACK GATE ALL DE WAY TO CALTEX BUSSTOP.DEN WEN I ASK TO C UR FONE IT TURNS OUT TO BE A RUBBER BAND.
TT THING U DID WAS LIKE OMG,I SERIOUSLI DUNNO WAD TO SAE TO YA...

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wednesdae nite vomited loads of time told my mum.she told mi to go n see the doctor.at first i was unwilling cuz de next dae i was working...cuz i hate to bustard shift.it just make me feel damn guilty.so i tot of goin to the polyclinic aft work at 6.but i checked on the net,polyclinic closes at 4.15.so i think3 den i told myself to go before work.

thursdae,woke up earli meet him at yew tee mrt at 7.40am cuz he wan to accompany mi to polyclinic eventho i told him i'm fine alone.den he still degil.so i sae ok lor...went to bukit batok polyclinic cuz if late at least its near to work.den went in the doctor's room,she scolded mi...she sae"i've seen ur records why did u not go all the appoiments that hav been scheduled to u?"den i was like fark who de hell you noe.den i sae orh not free ahz damn bz...den she check2 all tt den she refered mi to A&E. den i ask her A&E 24 hrs rite,so i go aft wrk can...den she sae no...Urs is critical go immediately...den i sae ok...

den went to ph bb,told huda abt it.den she went to read de refferal letter but she couldn't understand a shit tt de doc were talking...haha..den i sae to her aft wrk i go,den she sae jus go effa can handle...arh...so guilty seh leaft effa to do de morning shift alone...i noe de feeling doing alone so i hate to busted ppl...
1000s appoligies to ALL BB PH STAFF...

den he sent mi home,den he went home charged his psp n went to sKool...after skOOl he visited mi in de hospital cuz by den i was admitted in de hospital.he was der till late.soMetimes i feel guilty tt he can't spent his tym wid his fwens,cuz everytime afteer skOol he either take mi frm wrk or where eva i am n now pei mi in hospital.den he lent mi his psp...SO sweEt of him...tho he dun ike to pass mi de psp wen he is wid mi,cuz i will play it n forget abt him...hahah...sia lahz sae play game so mus concentrate lahz...

de next dae earli in de moring he came.den he stayed n accompanied mi till 6.40pm den went for his skoOl function n come back to de hospital at 11.40pmn stayed overnite...so Sweet of him...den my had go de "plug"de 1 where dey put drip...den it was super pain lahz...so he suapkan..haha..So sweet..

nani came at ard 3+ or 4+ like tt together wid mic n lUn...Dey bOughT mi SPONGEBOB BALLOON!!jie lun jus can't seem to StoP talking to the SponGebOB...hahah TOOk LotS PICs

After he went off,awhile ltr kinah,syaza n fau came...dey bought mi waffels..mcm tau onli i lapar..haha,actulli i 24hr lapar...

wen i was der, he lent mi his slipper n bring home mine shoe fer mi,lent his cap n psp even he charger...i noe bth of us are game addicts,so w/o game is hard to live...n he being able to tt is jus so SweeT...
LovE You!!!

For those HU visit mi while i was in de hospital thanks a loada i realli appreciate it...Thos who cover mine Shift n those hu hav to wrk extra hard cuz shOrtage of sTaff ,Millions aPPOligies n tHanks fer sacrificing ur time...Thanks a loads! =))

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Yesterdae my body ache one kind sia.den i keep on goin to toilet when working...Lucky not much customer.I keep on vomiting...first 2 vomit was jus fOod..den de third onwards was blooD.ya noe like i litterally vomit bLood..i duNno wads wrg wid mY stomach.bUt wen i off i'll be sure to go to the doctor.cuz anyways i lack of blOod alrd den to throw up More bLood is a nono.i din tell anyone tt i vomit bLoood during work.den at hoMe now oso still throw up Blood..de feeling damn sulky lahz...hate it sia...make mi can't slp...i lay dwn de bed onli pain...argh!!!

I've promise my mum tt i won't over worked myself till i sick.buT i guess i have jus broken her promise.
buT this wk i've no Off.How??mayb i go in de morning n come to work in de afternoon..haiz....damn body why damn weak!!!stress!!!!

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